I already took a long shower, I even ate a lot of ice cream

(it's double dutch btw, yum!

) but I'm still not feeling any better

I'm not even trying to think negative. Maybe I just have to stop keeping my feelings all to myself. I want to cry but there's nothing to cry about. (too proud to cry lol) It's not healthy... Unfortunately, there's no remedy for this. Even if there was, it still wouldnt work anyway. Got to have an open heart. Yes, an open heart. oh gawd i feel so pathetic putting this in journal.
*tries to apply painkiller liniment to her chest*